Recently I have come to the conclusion that in my work I act as an advocate for lost souls. Sixteen years ago, as I was coming out of an intense period of competitive bodybuilding, I never would have imagined that this would be my future. Yet maybe it was my imagination that guided me to this path.
Back then I was attending a screen writing class under the tutelage of Alfred Brenner, who passed away last summer at 95 years old. I had just submitted some pages of dialogue for our class, and the following week when I received Al’s notes, I was surprised to find him scolding me!
“Clearly,” he said, “based on your writing, you have not read my book!”
Wanting to be a good student, I humbly took Al’s advice; studying his book and learning his format. From my imagination came forth a story about an Irish nun called Mary. In the story, Mary wakes up from a dream filled with babies falling into a fluffy cyclonic wind tunnel and declares she is leaving for Sin City to save the babies. There, to her detriment, she falls in love with a gigolo and with his help manages to infiltrate a baby-selling racket operated by the local priest.
Currently one of the services we provide at Silver Horse Healing Ranch is Family Constellations, performed outdoors and with a horse. Bert Hellinger, originator of Family Constellation work claims that ‘everyone in the family has a right to belong’, including missing babies.
In many of the Constellations, the horses and I facilitate concern missing babies; aborted, miscarried or given up for adoption. The family members are represented by other people, horses or objects. In my experience, when the ‘mother’ is able to look into the eyes of her lost ‘baby’ and the ‘baby’ can see the ‘mother’, the baby is reintegrated into the family and the mother is freed of any inhibiting emotions.
Horses, with their empathic nature, easily relate to the archetypal pain of exclusion. This makes them excellent representatives for this type of work. They offer their support to the Constellation simply by being present and engaging.
Consequently, when the baby is welcomed into the family, balance is restored within the family system and everyone is able to move forward onto their own individual and evolutionary paths.
Needless to say it was an epiphany to acknowledge that, metaphorically, I am actualizing the mission of my fictionalized character, Mary, in order to ‘Save the babies’. To have recognition of the intricate pathways woven into the fabric of my destiny gives me an immense appreciation of my life and what lies ahead.