I’m not good enough

By on January 28, 2009 in Balance, Peace, Relationships, Spirit

 

Of course I am
 
Then why do I cry when someone tells me I am not
 
I hurt
and feel angry
when someone I trusted
pulls the rug out from under me
 
I cry for me,
 
then
I cry for them
 
Then I realize
I pulled the rug out from under myself
 
I can put it back
 
It’s a thick, soft Persian rug
And it feels like heaven under my toes
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I am a 45 year old mother of 2, a son on the verge of finishing college and a son who has just entered pre-school. I live in a small town in central Illinois right on the Mighty Mississippi. I grew up here, and even though I have lived several other places in this country as an adult, the river is in my blood. She is with me wherever I go.
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10 Responses to I’m not good enough

  1. mydomainpvt January 28, 2009 at 12:00 am #

    Very true words presented in a lovely frame.
    :)

  2. dymty January 28, 2009 at 10:02 am #

    Hi Sharon,

    It can be tricky, balancing trust and detachment.

    We like to give of ourselves, and like to believe the giving will be reciprocated. Unfortunately this is not always the case. When we make an emotional investment, it can be a real challenge to be detached, and so we're caught in the middle. How much to give? How much to hold back? How committed should I be? Could this be what's meant by 'giving until it hurts'?

    I haven't figured that one out either, so I understand.

    We just keep going then, don't we?

    Phillip

  3. Mr.McGoo January 28, 2009 at 11:32 pm #

    GOOD EVENING and THANK-YOU Sharon!!!

    You have a special, love and peace filled spirit and skill of expressing yourself. Your humble words and works just float up off the page, taking us to a more virtuous place and higher understandings of our potential and possibilities for Unconditional Love and Trust of ourselves and others.

    …, indeed, you just keep flying higher with your generosity of self, spirit and deed.

    ENJOY THE JOURNEY, WHEREVER and WHENEVER IT TAKES YOU!!!

    BLESSINGS, LOVE and PEACE!!!

  4. Noreen January 31, 2009 at 9:48 am #

    You are a beautiful writer and poet Sharon :-)

    Love

    Noreen.

  5. Anurag January 31, 2009 at 10:49 am #

    Do not get hurt,

    Do not cry,

    When you feel,

    someone try to pull the rug under your feet,

    Instead take this opportunity,

    wave your hands to make magic,

    and fly away the rug with you on it…

  6. stuball56 January 31, 2009 at 11:28 am #

    You are always good enough, you are a spectacular manifestation of wonder and awe. The entire universe was created for you. You are a miracle. The Divine manifestation that you truly are can only be manifested by you, no one else can be you. When someone is cruel or hurtful to you, they are projecting their own pain and suffering which is too intense for them to handle. Rather than be hurt by them listen to them and offer them compassion. "Who told you that you were not good enough? Has that message burdened you for so long that you are trying to get rid of it onto me? We are both good enough or we would not exist."

    love and light,

    Stuart
    http://stuartmarkberlin.com

  7. MississippiHippie January 31, 2009 at 12:41 pm #

    Thank you Sharmishtha, Tim and Noreen. You make my heart sing. I appreciate you so. Much love to you. :)

    Hi Phillip,

    Precisely, exactly what I was feeling, balancing trust and detachment, only I forgot to detach. I started a new job recently and felt at home immediately with the people in the office. I wanted to do a wonderful job for them; I felt so grateful to be there and I wanted them to feel just as grateful to have me.

    There is a learning curve though when starting a new job, and being thorough, I take a little time to absorb new info. My new boss/friend let me know it shouldn't take me that long to perform a certain task. Then he criticized me for something he had previously taken full responsibility for.

    I cried and cried lying in bed that night. Then I realized I could detach and acknowledge that my boss and I are both perfect just as we are.

    All the while, through the crying and letting go, the words to this blog were forming in my mind. Then I suddenly relaxed, got out of bed, came to my computer and put the words down right here.

    Thank you so much for your comment. You do understand. And yes, we just keep going. The next day all was well between my new boss/friend and me. I told him I'm learning. He said he was having a bad day, and we just kept going, with a smile and much more at ease. Peace and love.

    Hello Anurag,

    What a beautiful image you create. That is my desire, to have such peace and presence to make magic, and fly everywhere and always on this rug of freedom.

    Thank you so much. Love and Peace.

    Sharon

  8. MississippiHippie January 31, 2009 at 12:55 pm #

    Hello Stuart,

    Thank you for your uplifting words, and for taking the time to share them.

    "When someone is cruel or hurtful to you, they are projecting their own pain and suffering which is too intense for them to handle."

    This is true. I know because I do it to others sometimes.

    I do desire peace and freedom and to always just be present and just be me. This is my intention, and so it is, yes.

    Love,

    Sharon

  9. seeker88 February 12, 2009 at 11:03 pm #

    This one and 'the kiss' are my favorites! Hope you're well, Sharon.

    Lenny

  10. akateman August 18, 2010 at 8:48 am #

    love love this reply! "Who told you that you were not good enough? Has that message burdened you for so long that you are trying to get rid of it onto me? We are both good enough or we would not exist."