My heart is overwhelmed and continues to break for Michael Jackson.

I am glad/ thankful, to learn there were people who loved him; that some were truly involved in his well being, loving him, and guiding him.

I am glad he experienced loving his children. I’m glad his children experienced him as a loving and gentle father. I am thankful for his fans, who hopefully reminded him, that many people on this planet adored him, understood him  through his music, and understood his messages within his music.

I am sorry  that he experienced so much pain from some, and that he suffered the way he did. I’m sorry he was alienated from people who would have loved to have filled his heart with comfort and joy, and who would have loved to have been his friend.

He delivered what I consider to be messges from GOD. Messages to Love, Give, Provide for, and Protect the Children, and People of need..

I do consider him to be a gift of GOD, as we all are. He was blessed with specific talents and abilities, as we all are.  I feel  his abundant talent exemplifies his connection with GOD. I believe you have to be open and connected with GOD to be creative, present, and effective within the lives of others.  I believe that he fulfilled that part of his purpose.

I believe, at times, he represented Pure LOVE.

I have been trying to understand what happened to him and in his life.

At an early age he experienced terrible pain. I imagine that he tried to hold on. What kind of exposure to reality did a child star have? What coping mechanisms was he exposed to?  What problem solving skills was he taught to utilize during his early and young- adult years? Was he exposed to any? Maybe religion from his mother and family?

Overtime, pain led him to vices for comfort. In my opinion, emotional pain sought to be relinguished  though vices, obsesses into savage beasts and demons. He lived with these. I believe they fought to destroy the abundant gift of LOVE he possessed. Isn’t this an age-old example of good vs evil?

I think there is a message, and, really, certainly, many messages for us, in his life and death. How we treat others. Learning about ,caring for, and helping others. Genuinely having and showing compassion for everyone. How can we make sure to help others  to prevent future tragedies?

I have lots of questions.

Could things have been different??? Could we have done something??? What could we have done to help him???Perhaps, it was his pain that helped to fuel his messages. Maybe it is as it should be and we were not suppose to help. Were his life and death supposed to be this way?

But, can you imagine if he had been able to enjoy the abundance of  love from his fans personally? What if there were no paparazzi? Or, what if they could have been a positive force in his life? Helping him! What if there was no one taking advantage and wanting more from him?  His heart and life would have been filled with joy, and happiness! Perhaps, it is in these situations where many of the messages from his music can be applied.

Did he have a choice in what path he was to take?

I can imagine that there were at least two possible paths for him to travel through this world. The one we know: at times, Pure LOVE , sharing from the Creator, weaker in some areas, secretly struggling, misunderstood, ridiculed and publicized as the antithesis of who he really was, and what he stood for. Finally, finding strength and working his way back to show us the man he was, and was becoming. Tragically dying before he could reveal his growth and strength.

Or,  another path.He would still deliver his gift and message through music.This time with more inner strength, opening up and sharing his trials and tribulations with abuse and disease as soon as he was experiencing them. Allowing others to publicly participate in his healing and growth. Could living THIS path have taken him somewhere different?

We might have known a different Michal Jackson. Still a gifted musician, dancer, and artist. Still a poet. Still a seeker. But, with an addtional direction. With his renewed strength from society’s love and support, he becomes a crusader for the research and develpment of medications to overcome the auto-immune diseases that threatened his body. A spokesperson and model for overcoming.

Maybe not.

 MIchael was sensitive and gentle.  I consider him a beautiful spirit and soul. Perhaps Michael’s role was not to be the crusader, but the messenger. At this point, we know the path MIchael took. Maybe his life was supposed to be lived this way. Maybe he was supposed to suffer so we could learn. Or,  just simply that we have an opportunity to learn from his life, and from him. 

Whatever was to be, this is what was. I deeply recognize that he continued spiritually to seek GOD, show GOD, and knew and held on to LOVE. 

 In earlier years, like much of the public, I watched what the news reported  and read some of what the tabloids published.

 Then, as now, I looked at him with my heart, as a man. I felt sorry for him. I sensed that he had experienced pain, was emotionally tortured, and from what I understand, physically abused. I can only assume that many of the choices he made, stemmed, at least partially, from these experiences. These in combination with the other aspects that go along with an ENTIRE life lived in-celebrity; then,stellar-global-celebrity, success.

I didn’t /don’t think that he caused pain or harm to children. I believe, sense he was not trained in how to "positively interact with children in a way that our society deems appropriate and correct", that his pure and loving interactions were taken advantage of, and portrayed to generate questioning and distrust for financial gain. By some, he was simply bullied. They ridiculed, what at times, was a weaker and misunderstood man.

When I heard of his death, it was unbelieveable. My heart broke for him.

I felt like there was so much that the public didn’t know or understand behind those eyes and his face. I began to read the lyrics of his songs/ his messages, to listen to his heart through his music, and watch his performances.

At this point in my life, I am mature enough to hear, resonnate with, and value this man-as a man, and the messages he brings.

As everyone who is familiar with Michal Jackson, the performer , knows he is AMAZING-PHENOMENAL.

 But I see more than just the performer. I look at him as a child connected to his SOURCE. He entertained, YES! DEFINITELY! He, also,  delivered messages reminding us of the way we are supposed to be; living in LOVE, actively caring for, and serving those around us. He worked hard. We need to work as hard as Michael did in training for, and performing, to bring these messages into fruition.

I do not consider him a messiah. I value him as a soul who suffered, but still believed in what was good. Again, I recognize that he sought, and often times was able to, hold fast to GOD. It was this strength that cultivated all that was good in his life.

Thank you, Michael, for expressing the the GIFTS from  your heart. Thank you for your LOVE. 

GOD help us to live the way we are suppose to!

Thank you to the Jackson family for sharing your son and brother with us!

GOD bless his children.

A Heart’s Love.