By TL Cullen
I have been thinking a lot about this statement and how I can be the peace I wish to see in the world. I’ve had quite a turbulent time emotionally these last couple of years and it is these experiences that have driven me to search for techniques to restore my inner peace. Consistently be the best version of myself. Consistency, now that is the part that I really struggle with.
My hope is that by changing my perspective of life from defending the beliefs and behaviour of my ego to one of cooperation and support that it will remind others of their compassionate supportive nature. Consistently be the best version of themselves.
On my way to work this morning I witness road rage, a driver beeps and abuses a lady riding her bike. The bus driver argues with the man who can’t work out his bus ticket. These serve as reminders of peace so I buy the guy a ride on my ticket. It reminds to me to smile and connect with people on the street as I walk to work, people I would normally ignore. It reminds me to hold my tongue when my ego wants to defend me and say things that I know peace would never think let alone say.
I’m 35 years old so I forgive myself, daily….hourly, and figure that 35 years of habits running subconsciously are going to take more to reprogram than buying a bus ticket. But I do it anyway because I know that all these small things everyday represent the good in me. That well of unconditional love, compassion and kindness that we all carry around with us. They make me strive to do more and be accountable for my actions and inaction.
I once heard a saying that has stuck with me “anyone can be a Hitler or a Mother Teresa” (words to that effect). All it takes is choice. It’s so easy to go through life on autopilot and forget that we have choice. Recognising that I have a choice to be either I know instantly who I would rather be. Then
why is it so hard sometimes?
So I give a homeless man all the change left in my wallet but this time I engage in conversation, peace wins over fear, making those around me awkwardly shuffle on their feet desperate for the traffic light to change but at least they react. For a brief moment they return from autopilot to this world where they can make a real difference. It they choose to.
Individuals do make a positive impact on the world. I know this because I am one and I have given many positive things to this world. But I know that does not give me permission to revert back to the negativity that can settle in my mind. There is no point system involved in this process. I am committed to being the best version of myself.
What if individuals in power on the world stage chose peace? Chose to put their collective ego aside and began to demonstrate peace. These conflicts are old so I forgive them daily…hourly for not choosing the peace that is very much possible. The road less travelled. I know that years of habits running subconsciously through this world will take more than the seemingly difficult changes required to reprogram it but I hope they do it anyway.
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Having written for business for 16 years I have turned my attention to myself and begun the long overdue process of questioning my habits and beliefs and the effect they’ve had on my life so far. My passion is to find a balance between supporting others and loving myself in a non-ego way. My hope is that writing about my experiences will inspire others to have the confidence to be themselves, flaws and all, and to use the space that clearing self-sabotaging habits leaves to be the best version of themselves.