I had one class today which lasted only half an hour. It was great! There was a lot of information packed into that time. It was a session in the library teaching us how to specifically research Anthropology using my school’s library, the city’s university library, online resources, etc. I loved it! Being a writer and having previously taken Journalism in college, I’m always eager to discover new and more efficient methods of information gathering and research. I’m really excited about the Anthropology assignment we have to do using the skills learned today.
It was great that I got to get back to my parents’ house earlier than usual to play with the dog. I’m caring for her and watching the house until tomorrow night. She was surprised to see me home so early, too. It’s been awesome hanging out with her over the past week.
I’ve been continuing my extensive online research of possible ways to start an online store of some sort. It’s remarkable how it all seems to be coming together and making sense now. There is a LOT of information out there that is both relevant and important. Today I found some new resources when I was looking up something else completely. It just seems the universe affirms that is the direction I need to travel at this point.
I’m still amazed and grateful that I’ve been able to keep a positive attitude. I feel that is the most important thing getting me through this because instead of getting stressed and upset and totally shutting down, the opposite is happening – I’m motivated to actively change my situation. As a result, I not only have a strong sense of faith that everything is going to work out as it should, but I have the self-confidence and motivation to take necessary action. It’s awesome!
Keeping my attitude positive has also kept me open to receiving messages the universe is sending. They’re like whispers that I likely would have missed or dismissed had I been feeling down. Instead, I feel these nudges in the right direction and it fuels my positivity even more.
Initially, I’ll admit, I found it extremely difficult to completely surrender to "letting go." I think it stemmed from a lack of trust. I’ve been interested in spirituality as opposed to organized religion most of my life. It just makes more sense to me. There are aspects of all religions that I believe are universal. I’ve found a lot of positive influences along the way from a number of sources. I’ve read most of Dr. Wayne Dyer’s books – either in paper form or audiobook. I’ve looked into many different approaches to meditation and relaxation – which has always been a challenge. In doing so I’ve learned how to slow down and appreciate stillness and silence.
I’ve noticed that within about the past three years, I’ve learned how to be what I’d call "comfortably open." By that, I mean I am more accepting. I take time to consider things more before dismissing them whereas before I may have instantly dismissed them. I accept that everyone is unique and approaching the world from their own angle, background, experiences, biases, and goals. Physically, I feel a great deal more relaxed because I have less stress in my life. I trust that everything will work out and know that I don’t have control over everything. There is no mistake I can make that I can’t bounce back from. I’ve actually changed my view on mistakes entirely and choose to view them as learning experiences.
I’ve learned that trusting and having faith doesn’t mean sitting back and letting everything happen around me. I’m an active participant in my life. It’s completely up to me to take the necessary actions to take me where I want to go or need to be. I know me better than anyone else. Stress comes from anticipating unfortunate outcomes. I have recognized this in myself and have consciously chosen to believe whatever the outcome is, it will end on a positive note – whether it’s a new learning experience or the desired outcome.
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