I began to feel heavier and heavier as 2008 came to a fold. I realized I was holding onto pain in my heart that was calling out to me. Fortunately, I was invited to teach yoga in the mornings at a the silent meditaion retreat for Agape. Theses past few years I have taught the yoga sessions in the morning then stayed for a bit and went home, I was a commuter. I dipped in and left. This past New Years retreat was further away in Joshua Tree. When I learned it was in a new location and it was in the desert I began to feel the itch. This itch was the call to heal once again on a new level. Little did I know how much of my retreat would be about forgiveness. When I sat I would get really uncomfortable and scratch the itches, stretch my body and knew there was a true purpose for my getting closer to my heart.
My shift happened new years eve in the sanctuary with about 250 people sitting in an oval around a shaman who began the ceremony with fire and many chants. We were all cleansed with some kind of sage and then given 2 corn kernals to breathe our prayers into.I was ready to let go and little did I know of how much. When Rev. Michael had us do a process for forgiveness I became eager to do my work.
We were asked to close our eyes, step into our center into our breath then ask for those who we have to forigive to show up. For me it is always energetic with visulization. I laughed thinking the room was not big enough. But without fail the energies filed in and at first were a crowd. Then turned into a few lines then one line then one person and that person was ME!!!!! We were asked to bless each one, let them know we forgive them and that they hold no power over us. I was refreshed by repeating these words.
Then, Rickie Byers Beckwith began to play, "Forgive Me" and we all chanted the words:
I forgive me, I forgive me. Everything that I am holding onto I let go. I surrender, I’m ready to let go.. then it moves to I forgive Him (those faces poped up), I forgive Her (those faces appeared) and as we moved through I got lighther and lighter only to realize that I was still holding onto even the sillyest of things.
Check in and begin your forgiveness process:
Find a quiet place, even in front of your computer as you are reading this. Take a deep breath and give yourself permission to explore and release what you are holding onto.
Ask aloud, what am I ready to forigive and let go of?
Then, open up and invite those who you are ready and willing to forgive. . See who arrives and let them know you let them go, bless them, thank them and let them know they don’t hold power over you.
Are you ready to see you are the only one to forgive?
Tell youself at the end of each day that you forgive yourself for any little thing you may of done and watch how much lighter you are in the morning.
Bio:
Hillary Rubin has been a motivated leader in the health and wellness industry for years, teaching yoga and lecturing on a range of topics dealing with empowering modalities for optimal health. She has been featured on Fit TV, Lime.com, YogaJournal.com, LA Yoga, Yoga Mates, Conscious Choice Magazine, Yoga Peeps,and iyogalife.com. Her commitment to helping others is fueled by compassion and founded on the breakthroughs of her own personal experience.
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