As I imagine pure consciousness, before the separation into observer and observed, I wonder, what is the spectrum of emotion present there? We all agree that love, joy and pure bliss are there, this is easy to imagine. But, I can also imagine some element of sadness, god’s longing to experience godself that must have preceded the separation. Or is that longing somehow different from the sadness we feel as humans when something seems to be missing, or when we are missing something or someone? And then what of anger? Is there some element or are the makings of anger present in this state of pure consciousness? Was there a thread of frustration streaming through the infinite formless godness… I want to experience myself! I am awesome, yes, I am amazing, I am expansively remarkable, yes. But, I want the experience!
I suppose it is slightly more difficult for me to imagine anger there, but then again, not really.
Is it perhaps that anger is a by-product of separation? Is there some element of anger present in the baby’s cry upon separation from the comfort of the womb? Is pain an inevitable part of assuming physical form? But if it is, doesn’t that mean pain must be an element of pure consciousness, since all form is a reflection, a manifestation of the formless and infinite god? Are the makings of painful feelings, the building blocks of anger and sadness, are they there even in the formless and purest state of all that is?
In Conversations With God, Book I, page 83, Neale Donald Walsch says:
"Perfect love is to feeling what perfect white is to color. Many think that white is the absence of color. It is not. It is the inclusion of all color. White is every other color that exists, combined.
So, too, is love not the absence of an emotion (hatred, anger, lust, jealousy, covetousness), but the summation of all feeling. It is the sum total. The aggregate amount. The everything."
Is love the sum total of all emotion? Is every emotion of god, even when god is in the purest state? Are anger and sadness a part of god, infinitely, always and forever a part of love?
Infinitely, always and forever a part of us…
Hi Sharon,
You have it. Yes, love is all-inclusive, it is everything. Love is pure acceptance of what is: anger, hate, joy, bliss; there are no conditions that are unacceptable.
The anger and sadness of which you speak, from my perspective, is a creation of the ego, and is borne of that original separation. Not the separation of baby from mother, or observer and observed, but the "I" from pure conciousness. Our true nature is to be one, but our ego would like us to think that we, as individuals, are different, and thus separate. There really is no 'you and I'; we are all one. So there really is no sadness based on missing 'someone' or 'something' because there is nothing to miss. Everything is all right here, right now. It's our attachment to the story that we are separate and therefore missing something. And this too, is a part of us. We cannot rid ourselves of ego, nor would we want to. Instead, we find ways to work with ego, in concert, inclusively, and accept ego for what it contributes. The efforts to banish ego are always fruitless. We mustn't strive to 'break' ego. like a wild stallion. Rather, we should seek out cooperation and find ways to best work together. This should be a life's work, as ego is often like a spoiled three year old who is on to you. Whatever 'trick' you can think of, ego nearly always seems to be one step ahead with tricks of its own. Just go with it, accept it, be its pal. In other words, love ego. But also be the good friend who knows when to take away the keys when things get out of control.
Sadness and anger are not right or wrong, they just are. Let them come into, and out of, your life. They are part, only part, of who you are, as is everything and everyone.
Hi Phillip
Thank you for your comment. What you say resonates. The truth is, I like the game of "separation". I'm glad god decided to play… or should I say I decided to play.
Just the other day, Deepak wrote in "Becoming the light of God":
"Looking inward we see the unity of all diversity, and looking outward we see our individuality, difference and separation."
Since I accepted that love is all-inclusive, as you say, pure acceptance of what is, I can enjoy playing "separation". Even when I am experiencing sadness or anger, I am in the game, experiencing our separation and individuality. But in a flash, I can look inward and see the "unity of all diversity". And I feel one again. What's really cool is to be in the game, looking outward at our individuality, while having the experience of total joy, spontaneous laughter and a sort of ecstacy.
I'm glad we, I, you, decided to play
I agree it seems we want to eliminate EGO, when ego is what allows us this experience. AND even though this experience isn't always pleasant feeling various and sundry emotions is what it is, because if not why have it?
Some dream of perfection and bliss, but considering that's what we
Hi Sherri,
Thank you for your comment!
You've inspired a blog!
Sharon
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